I feel like Aster

Hi guys!

Been a while hasn’t it? I’ve been so busy. Currently I am moving house and I started a new job not too long ago! Oh and happy new year!

This is going to be such a positive and happy blog I’d like to hope.

Last year I was at my lowest point at the start of the year and really was not coping at all. My mental health had deteriorated to the point the word ‘tesco’ or ‘co-op’ would physically make me shake and feel nauseous and go into a panic attack. To most people it was so silly, but to me it was very very real.

I’ve come on in leaps and bounds since then, I hit rock bottom and I’m moving back up to the aster I used to be.

Last year, I couldn’t get out of the car, if you could even get me in it in the first place. I don’t know why, I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t face anyone or anything, I felt insane. I felt I was going nuts, I felt I had no one to turn to and my life was slowly spiralling out of my control.

I was so low, I didn’t know if I wanted to continue or not, and that’s not something I ever want to feel again.

I started my anti depressants at the start of the year and slowly with time they helped me. But it was up to me to get the old aster back.

Slowly but surely the old aster I love and know is coming back. I’m feeling better and better and more able as time goes on, but it will take time. I know I’ll never be fully me again but I don’t want to ever feel as low as I felt then.

The sad truth is you really learn who your friends truly are at your worst.

Jade my friend since I started secondary was a true blessing to me. I don’t know how I’ll ever be able to repay her, she picked me up at my worst and helped me. She took me out most evenings for walks and chips and just little things like that made me see the good in life.

Elliott is an angel. He’s so patient and calm with me and without him I wouldn’t have seen that I could do this. I couldn’t have done half the stuff I’ve achieved since hitting rock bottom without Elliott.

I met my best friend abbey last year and she’s helped more than she’ll ever know. I’m always going to be grateful and I love her to the moon and back.

I’m just so grateful to be feeling slowly and slowly better and I just want people to know it’s ok to have bad days (I’ve had my fair few!!!) and it’s ok to have slip ups and it’s ok to struggle. You are only human. You will get better and it will become manageable you need to hang in there. There is good.

Love aster x

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My Christmas haul

Hey guys and a very merry Christmas to you all!

Today is the day of the not so great Christmas haul. So grateful for everything and everyone that’s bought me something! I really appreciate you all x

THE LEGIT BEST present EVER no joke!!! Was Lilo my 3 month old guinea pig that mum and dad got me. As you may known I’m a huge fan of guinea pigs and when I say huge I mean huge I mean I have 3 and a rabbit so come on😂 I was taken to the local pet shop as a surprise on the Friday before Christmas and given my little angel❤could not be anymore grateful!

This beautiful bracelet was given to me by my uncle’s family and it can’t be anymore gorgeous 😭

My mum and dad bought me a lil liner bear and it couldn’t be any cuter😭

Elliott my wonderful boyfriend bought me a MASSIVE stitch from the Disney store. As you all know I love stitch so much. And I’m sooooo in love.

Elliott bought me this beautiful jumper from new look, he really does have a great eye for nice clothes!

Elliott’s parents bought me this cosy and soft jumper also!

My mum got me and Elliott a hamper of food and stuff and it was a really thoughtful idea❤

so as you guys may know I struggle BADLY with psosorais so Elliott’s parents bought me some creams and lotions to help it❤

Elliott bought me a diary because I’m so forgetful!😭😂

got so much sweeties😭

Elliott got me a Lilo and stitch colouring book and I just love it😭

Elliott got me a pretty lil sloth water bottle that I kept picking up in Primark when we were in Aberdeen because it is so cute😭

Liam bought me a pretty lil stitch😭

another one of the creams!

and another!

Elliott got me this pretty lil sign with a strong meaning☀️

not even joking about the sweets!

Elliott got me some gorgeous shoes!

and slippers!

My mum and dad got me such a cute piggie canvas 😭

My friend jade bought me this beautiful stitch necklace and I am in Love!

Meeting my best friend

Hey guys. Sorry I haven’t posted much.

So recently on a trip to my home city Aberdeen I finally met up with my best friend Abbey.

I never imagined that I would find my true friends, but when I found you I finally did. Thank you for coming into my life. You believed in me even when I didn’t believe in myself. Out of the 7 billion people in the world I’m blessed to be able to call you my best friend.

I never knew what true friendship was until I met you.

My favourite memory was meeting you for the first time (in Primark!!). Seeing you in person and finally being able to hug you meant so much to me. We would always talk about it one day happening and then when it finally did it was great.


You were there for me through my ups and downs, and for that I’m forever grateful. I couldn’t imagine not having you there for me. I just want you to know that no matter where life takes us you’ll always have a place in my heart.

I can’t wait to continue to get older and go through even more of life together. I will always be there for you. Even if we don’t talk for awhile I love how we can pick up were we left off.

I’m so grateful to have had the chance to have met you and I can’t wait to see you soon .

Love Aster x

My Aberdeen haul

Hi guys! Sorry i haven’t posted recently I’ve been working and I am now currently on holiday in my home town Aberdeen. I thought I’d do a haul blog on everything I bought in Aberdeen minus people’s presents. Enjoy!

One of the first items I bought was this beautiful jumper from Primark. It’s so soft! And comfy. I bought it in a size XL so I could have it quite baggy. It was £13!

The next thing I bought was stitch slip on socks/slippers. As you all more as likely know I am obsessed with stitch. So these were a must buy. They were £4! They are from Primark.

One of the other items I bought were grey joggers. They are so comfy. When I’m having a bad Psorasis day with my skin hurting These comfy and loose joggers really help me. I bought them in a size large for a baggier fir and surprise surprise they are from Primark! They were £5.

the next item I bought was this beautiful scarf from Primark. I absolutely love scarves so this was a must have for me. It was £4.

I also bought this beautiful bracelet from card factory for £2 as a remembrance to my grandmother who I was very close to.

I bought some bath salts and wash as well which I find really helps my skin. For £7.99 from tk maxx

I also bought this charcoal body scrub from Primark for £4.

my next buy was a pair of new shoes from Primark. I got them in a size 6 for £10 and I love them!

I bought these mustard pumps from Primark in a size 6 for £4. I just looooooved them.

I bought this baby pink jumper in a size medium from new look. It’s so comfy and for £9.99 you can’t go wrong!!

As you can probably tell I legit only buy anything from Primark or new look. Not too sure if that’s a good thing! I never bought much for me whilst being in Aberdeen as everything I mainly bought was Xmas pressies!!!!

Love aster x

A blog about cats

Cats. I just love the little bundles of love. My mum currently has 5.
Cats are curious animals. They are also very intelligent.

One of the things I’ve noticed about cats is they are little characters. For such small animals they have really big personalities.

Cats are really easy to take care of. They need a litter tray and food. An empty box is their Favourite bed.


Cats have a long life and they have nine of them making them true life long companions. Cats life spans variety on their breed but typically almost all cats are predicted to live over 12 years some even up to 22+.
Cats love hugs. cats also love their personal space and alone time as much as we do.

Dogs are relentless when it comes to food, however, cats generally will let you eat your meal in peace.

There are few sounds more calming than a cats purr. It makes you feel relaxed and loved.


Cats reduce your stress and anxiety. Spending time with a cat produces a chemical in your brain called serotonin that helps you to feel happy and relaxed.

Overall I think everyone really should have a furry ball of love.

Why I love Aberdeen

Aberdeen is situated in the north-east of scotland. Aberdeen is known as the Granite City. Aberdeen is an ideal destination for a weekend city break.

Aberdeen beach

I was born in Aberdeen and have spent the majority of holidays there. The northlink (ferry that takes 14 hrs) takes us from our little island to aberdeen. It’s hellishy expensive to get to the mainland from shetland but well worth it.

The dreaded cabin

I love love love the scenery. But most of all the street art. Street art is not something you see commonly in Shetland we do have a few murals but Aberdeen have so many. They are so beautiful and I don’t know why I like them so much.

I fully recommend staying in applewood guest house located on bonaccord street in ferryhill. https://www.google.co.uk/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.trivago.co.uk/aberdeen-41567/hotel/applewood-guest-house-4945410&ved=2ahUKEwiumq6FjOjeAhVDglwKHXYVDL4QFjAuegQIABAB&usg=AOvVaw0jxPguOiQ_zgS9WoszTN4X

there’s a beautiful park very close by!!

Carol the owner is super lovely and I’ve stayed with her many times before. Or if you fancy a hotel setting then ibis is the place to be.

dining room at the guest house

view from my window at ibis

https://www.google.co.uk/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.accorhotels.com/gb/hotel-5170-ibis-aberdeen-centre-quayside/index.shtml&ved=2ahUKEwiljrXOjOjeAhVYOMAKHUQsAzgQFjAnegQIBxAB&usg=AOvVaw1FH3X2WrQxZfEth7NWOqCB

The only shop i have come to realise I will ever wear clothes from is Aberdeens Primark. How awful is that?

Aberdeen has such a beautiful beach located near to codonas. Shetland doesn’t have an ice cream shop so one of the best highlights for me is walking along across from the beach at all the ice cream parlours.

Got to do a shoutout for these!!

There is so many cute lil cafes dotted around Aberdeen for breakfast or lunch. One of my favourites for breakfast has to be one in the market.

I never try a lot of restraunts in Aberdeen when I am down as we don’t have a McDonald’s, kfc, burger king etc in Shetland so that is my meals sorted.

ok I lie. I do quite enjoy a pizza from snappy tomato!

Ferryhill is my favourite part of Aberdeen. I enjoy all the parks and walks in Aberdeen.

go visit Aberdeen it’s worth it!

Love aster x

All you need to know about Lhasaliers

Hi guys!

Apologies for not posting another blog recently.

you can even dress them in spider costumes!

I’ve taken a bit of a liking to my mams Lhasalire (cross between the Lhasa apso and the cavalier king ching Charles spaniel.) So I thought I’d do a blog on them.

they sleep alot

If you didn’t know already the lhasalier is one of the popular designer dog breeds. The Lhasalier (well certainly my mums one) are literally a walking ball of cuteness.

they are so pretty to photograph
These small dogs are very affectionate and friendly. Their alertness definitely makes them a great watchdog.

They love cuddles

These cuddly lil dogs are loyal and will try to be by your side at all times

They aren’t a good breed of dog if you are going to be out a lot of the time as they can get separation anxiety.

they love cuddly toys

This breed is great with kids. It loves them.

she gets on so well with Maisy (mams shepadoodle)

Daisy my mams dog has velvety fur which I love.

I would seriously if you have an opportunity get one. They are the cutest cuddliest bundles of love ever.

Love aster x